NOW
I dont like what you are doing to yourself you have been in and out of a grug for far too long now time to pick yourself up and get back to where you know you can be. A lean mean weight lifting healthy eating machine. You have been fortunate enough to not gain all the weight back I have been so blessed to lose. But now I want to get back to where I was in Iraq and even better. I fell in love with that person and then I had a down fall and let it go. Up and down up and down over and over this has been a battle for the last year, alright! well NO MORE! no more excuses, no more reasons not to. time to buck up and figure out why to do it and do it. No stopping me no more pit stops and snack bites. only healthy food and clean food to enter this body. run run run and more run until this new gym opens. I cant wait to get back into that beautiful smelly place with the clinking and clanking grunting and yelling. I want to be reunited with the people that motivate me and people I can motivate. Thanks to my weight lifting friends that have never ever let me down, Doree LU LU and Nicole Gray who at one time had never known me and yet still used everything in their power to motivate me and not let me fall. On my own I fell and looking up at all these helpful faces guess what this girl is getting back up. I will be training for a marathon that I hope my family will fly down to attend in November. Not to mention when that Gym opens I will enter the door with the greatest smiles and never want to leave. Updates begining pictures and progress pics and info to come. Thank you to my wonderful husband that has never given up on me and has loved me for chubby, skinny, motivated and lazy, no moatter what and thank you to my family and friends and all the motivating people in my life. I didnt give up I just took a really long break and guess what this Bia is back!
my Iraq story
Were you are trying to push someone who has taken on the challenge of a fitness goal, into eating some crap? This person has set out on a mission to get herself in the best shape of her life. This requires eating some food that doesn’t taste as great as what you are offering and it is very difficult and challenging to say no. It is a very very difficult sacrifice to make in giving up all the more delicious tasting foods in pursuit of a fit body and it becomes even more difficult when people like you constantly question what she is eating and and keep offering her more crappy food to eat. The crappy food you are offering may taste so delicious but the very sad and unfortunate truth is that it makes our bodies look like total crap. I wish it weren’t the case, but it is true.
Even if this person doesn’t need to lose any weight, the crappy food will STILL make her/his body look like crap so it’s not only about gaining or losing weight, it’s about staying fit. Here is a person trying to accomplish a very difficult goal of getting and staying in great shape, and you come along and try to throw her/him off course. How about giving her a little support instead ? This process is very challenging.
If you want to eat crap go right ahead,.. we all make our own choices but there is no need to try and drag others down with you. Or maybe you just don’t realize that eating crap makes you look like crap(many people don’t know that) and you think it is just genetics or aging that causes us to have dangling lard all over our bodies?It doesn’t have to be that way. Start eating right as well, and you will soon see how nice you will start to look and feel and you will see that it is worth giving up the crap. There is no doubt that it SUCKS saying no all the time to the pizzas, the cookies, the cakes, the ice cream and such. It really does SUCK.
As delicious as all the crappy foods can be, they don’t come close to being as fun as it is to walk around in a lean, hard, tight body and look good in any piece of clothing. The right food will give you this look and feeling foods such as plain chicken, oatmeal, fish, and vegetables. It’s a hard pill to swallow in giving up all the goodies but once you accept the facts you can make the best of it. How would you like to go clothes shopping and have everything look good on you? It is completely possible if you’ll stop eating all the crap and make the right choices each day.
If you make your choice to eat that food its your choice but just be aware that it cant be mine. Some people can eat whatever they want and get away with it other people just dont care. But I do and I have been working really hard. I have lost 53 pounds so far and want to keep going. I do thanks my friends, family and amazing husband for their support though. 
This was me a year ago
This is me now after busting my butt and I can only get better no looking back now.
When I got to Iraq I was 183 pounds Not a good place to get fat I can tell you that much considering I really didn’t realize how fat I was until now. I used to say on a hot day, this is not a good day for fat people well I was right probably over 130 degrees in the Kuwait sun I was lost wondering around for two hours with my friend hence the picture of me in shorts and a bra LOL sick! This is when I decided it wasnt a good day for me I was the fat person. That’s when I needed to make a change, I started off slow I can tell you that much but I still had a goal. I was going to get to where I wanted to be one pound at a time. I would go to people for advice and hear different things I had down falls but picked my self back up thats for sure. I started dragging my butt to the gym and I would bring who ever would go with me, having a partner helps. Then I got sent to Bucca and the gym became more part of my life coming to the realization there wasn’t crap else to do in this hot hell hole! So me being me did research and started doing cardio not knowing that wasn’t the only thing I needed. Then I started to lift weights. I watched my weight drop a little. i was trying to eat healthier and not doing to bad. I tried a couple of fad diets and all that jazz but knew that wasnt somthing I could stick to, my bucca trip came to an end off to basrah I went. Still with fitness in mind. Ha they have more gyms here and one right outside my door how could I find an excuse not to go. So I went more and more grabbing whoever I could to go with me. I started going almost everyday. Then I met my husband well not husband at the time but a great man non the less. and come to find out he is a fitness freak doing two a days one at 4 am and one at night. of course me being the girl I was didnt want to work out with him at first in fear that I might embrace my self, so along came Melissa and we started to work out together off the weight came. at first I wasnt eating healthy still I was more not eating as much and it wasnt good for me then i started to eat more and more but I wasnt eating crap I more started to hate crap food. Then I finally got up the guts to ask Tyler if we could work out together and he said yes so I started to work out with him I was doing two a days sometimes but eventually it was a giggle fest at first what relationship isnt but then we got serious about working out cause I was finally seeing results and I knew he could help so everyday we would go to the gym along with his workout partner Matt and sometimes we would all go in a group. We turned it fun. But we still went everyday. I took care of the eating healthy part being my hubby wasnt around for meals being stuck at his stupid job. but when we could eat together it was always subway, group dinner the guys that work there had our orders memorized. LOL. But Tyler would push me and push me and show me I could do way more then I thought I could do. He motivated me everyday. Eventually in Jan he had to leave me to go home but thats when I decided this was all about fitness now I have my plan down and wanted to see if someone was coming with me. Then came my Dragon buddy LOL Debbie nelson my new partner in crime and my workout partner, We work out as much as we can and we have both done amazing and continue to do so. With bodybuilding.com research on the net and from my husband I have come very far and plan on getting further I was 183 pounds and now I am 130 there is no stopping me now. My pt test when I got here was a 25 minute 2 mile run and barely passing my situps and pushups I now max my pushups and situps and I hit 80% on my run I could barely run a mile and last week I ran 7.2. I am going to keep going and better my life to my best ability! I have goals and I will reach them and I have dreams and I will make them happen just know anyone can do it the only thing stopping you is you. 
PUPPY and Me and my weight loss gotta keep running
